idk man i’ve only been at the front for MCR gigs and that was an overnight queuing thing, not sure if other bands have fans that do that.. maybe just get there really early like 7am. and yeah i’ve seen A7X once they were amaazing, pretty mental crowd ha
what, the Jesus pic he posted? idk man it could represent sacrifice.. i.e they sacrificed their relationship for the sake of their families and future. something like that??
insert-fandom-here said: The only reason I’ve surivived is I’m throwing every ounce of myself into art and music. And denying the break up. That’s works well
yeah strong denial has been my coping method mostly. the only time I’ve actually let myself think about it was a couple weeks ago when I was sat in a venue/torture chamber where I saw and met MCR.. literally felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. and since then idk it’s been more real to me and I can’t stop thinking about it and ugh
well.. yes and no. sometimes it’s ok because I can distract myself with other stuff and I just carry on happily in denial
then there’s the times when i’m alone and I just stop and think “everything that was amazing and exciting in my life has gone” and knowing I will never feel that level of excitement again makes me feel hollow as fuck
I just feel like i’ve lost a massive part of myself and I don’t understand who I am and what i’m doing with my life anymore. other people don’t understand me either, no one gets it. MCR were always there for me, always in the back of my mind bringing me comfort and a sense of belonging when things got tough, they were my coping method. now i’m just.. stuck